It’s been quite awhile since I’ve written in here, and then I got an email saying that this website was automatically going to be renewed. I haven’t been updating or writing or promoting anything…because…I’ve just been… I don’t know. Through some stuff. That held me back. Others, and mostly myself. Music became a chore, I felt scared of the scene and still do. I’m not really sure what my direction is right now.
I have songs. And I just wanted to let you know that I’m still here. Even if it is a struggle, I feel like the need to release art is coming back. I’m sure a lot of you can relate.
How do you keep on going? It’s difficult right? Change is hard, trauma is harder, life is the most difficult of all.
I’ve been wondering for about three years now if I was worth anything. My success in music has been a constant of “Almost there”. Almost had a great solo career, almost had a great band that was actually going places (until he decided to end it and create a new life for himself..am I still bitter? noooooo), Almost had this opportunity and that opportunity, and it all got taken away basically in some form or another. So here I am, Wondering, wondering wondering, what my next step is…
I have a few ideas..
Start a patreon.
Release another EP
Create more youtube videos like I used to
Change up my live sound (loops will be involved.)
Throw myself off a cliff.
No, I’m kidding. Really!
I've just been tired, and sad and tired and can’t ever seem to get enough sleep.
Anyway, Thanks for reading the rantings of a lunatic.
I’m not dead yet.